The Mental Hardcore Health Newsletter aims to focus, and provide helpful information, on topics like anxiety, depression, mania, isolation, and other problems and so-called "disorders", in relation to the Hardcore Techno scene, community, and culture.
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Mental Hardcore Health Newsletter #1 - Introducing the Mental Hardcore Health Newsletter
https://thehardcoreoverdogs.blogspot.com/2023/07/mental-hardcore-health-newsletter-1.html
Mental Hardcore Health Newsletter #2 - "There is no sex in Hardcore"
https://thehardcoreoverdogs.blogspot.com/2023/08/mental-hardcore-health-newsletter-2.html
Mental Hardcore Health Newsletter #3 - Sonic mental health project
https://thehardcoreoverdogs.blogspot.com/2023/09/mental-hardcore-health-newsletter-3.html
Mental Hardcore Health Newsletter #4 - Let's normalize talking about mental health issues.
https://thehardcoreoverdogs.blogspot.com/2023/12/mental-hardcore-health-newsletter-4.html
Mental Hardcore Health Newsletter #5 - NYE Message 2023
https://thehardcoreoverdogs.blogspot.com/2024/01/mental-hardcore-health-newsletter-5.html
Mental Hardcore Health Newsletter #6 - Being Hardcore with Mental Health Problems
https://thehardcoreoverdogs.blogspot.com/2024/02/mental-hardcore-health-newsletter-6.html
NYE Message - change the world, change your lives!
So here's my little message for you, to reign in the new year.
I know a lot of you out there go through a lot of pain right now. I know this, because you have told me - in mails, on messengers, and elsewhere.
Not just having a crisis, but that you are essentially getting emotionally choked to death in this moment. Into the deepest pain and the deepest void imaginable.
Let me tell you, this goes beyond the personal, individual level. The whole world is in a lot of pain right now. It feels like everything is going insane.
Now let me offer you at least a fragment of explanation for these feelings.
The world is changing. On a deep level. And life is, too.
But, people are still fighting this change. And this creates this feeling of pain.
Because people are desperately clinging to things that they are not able to hold on to. And wasting their energy and emotions beyond the point of exhaustion.
Let's give some examples.
People feel depressed and anxious at their workplace. And, indeed, the whole concept of work, attitude related to work etc. is changing right now.
Yet they still walk to their same shitty job every shitty day even though they know it's pointless, their job might disappear in a few years anyway, together with their saving money.
But they still wake themselves up each morning and get out of and bed and walk to a job that's killing them on the inside. For no reason at all.
Or they are stuck in a venomous relationship. They tear each other up, or get torn up. They know nothing changes, and it won't get better. But they still desperately stick to their relationship even though they know it will kill them.
Or they're in a subculture that was lively and exciting in the past, but is populated by numbed zombies and fuckheads now. Still, they don't leave, and change nothing.
Why do people do this? They are afraid of change. They are afraid of something new.
"Better the devil you know", "A new situation could be even worse", and more bullshit sayings like that.
But most importantly, people generally are unable to let go of things. Because, yes, it's true - it's very difficult to let go. It's very hard to start something new. To face a completely new situation.
And finally: Yes, you all are right! What you say is true. When you change something, when you change your life, it could indeed be worse than before. You could fail! You can fail horribly.
But that is not a reason to not at least *try* to change something.
You never have a guarantee for a good outcome in life.
But you should still dive head-first into the unknown.
If you hate your job. Quit it, and try something else.
If you hate your relationship. Quit it, and try something else.
If you hate your subculture. Don't accept it, change it.
That's the only way you will be able to free yourself from the choke-hold.
And this goes for every other area of life as well.
Because, believe me. Things won't get better and easier by themselves.
Remember how hard life already was in 2019?
The pain we went through in 2023 made 2019 pale in comparison, right?
Who can fathom how hard 2024 will be for us... and the years that follow - if we don't fight all of this!
So don't stick to things that torture you. Don't follow your routine every day, every month, every year, when you despite that routine.
Get out of situations that are harmful to, to your soul, to your mind.
Flee, fight, or change this stuff.
Yes, change is scary. Yes, the "unknown" feels frightening and the "pain that you used to" feeds on your illusion of conformity.
And yes, you might even fuck up - at first.
But then get up again, wipe the sweat and blood away, and on to the next round.
I know you can win. I know *we* can win. It's easier than you think.
And when all this is past, you will realize it was much more difficult, and much more painful, to hold on - instead of letting go and moving ahead.
You are a brave, fierce little fighter. Like everyone is, deep in his heart.
I'm counting on you. I'm counting on all of us.
And now here is little additional advice.
If you really feel too frightened - or too uncertain - to tackle these big changes.
Then start by changing little things first.
Do *some* things that are a total breakaway from your routine, while still maintaining it.
Start looking online for new jobs, while sticking to your old job for a while.
Talk to others about your relationship problems even if you feel unable to get out of it at first.
Maybe this illusion of a safety net will help you, while these "small" things will show you that change is indeed possible, and waiting for you out there.
Apply this to any other area of life that damages you.
Oh, and please don't get the impression that this text is about some self-help, feel-good kind of stuff.
I'm talking about deep, profound, burning, annihilating changes, that transform your life from the ground up - and the world!
Dream Lovers
Low Entropy's Dream Producer Diary
Dreams about love are always an extraordinary type of dream.
I am especially interested in a certain kind of theme: media, books, movies, songs etc. in which lovers are united in their dreams and share true, pure, eternal love - but have never met in real life!
Songs and tracks (from all genres) that express this theme often end up becoming my favorite songs. And are very influential to my own music production.
Here is a list of some of them. They are directly or indirectly related to this theme.
Desire - Black Latex
"It's Like The Whole World Has Gone Mad
I Saw You In A Dream Again
All Dressed In Blue
Crossing The Tide
Burning Like Fire
It's Just Me & You
You're The Sun
I'm The Moon"
Platronic - Dreams
"And even if we both don't speak
Silence is louder than it seems
Cause we're sharing the same thoughts
And we're bearing the same dreams"
Dynoro & Gigi D’Agostino - In My Mind
"And in my mind, in my head
This is where we all came from
The dreams we have, the love we share
This is what we're waiting for"
David Sylvian - Thoroughly Lost To Logic
"When the crazy one came
She placed her finger on my forehead
And pushed on through
I woke up, face on fire
Spitting out diamonds
Thoroughly lost to logic
Craving her madness"
Superpower - By The Fire
"Come with me
By the fire
Feel the flames
Of our desire
[...]
Born in my mind
Born in my mind"
(Could actually be "Burn in my mind"... but I prefer this interpretation)
Gigi D'Agostino - L'Amour Toujours
"I still believe in your eyes
I just don't care what you have done in your life
Baby, I'll always be here by your side
Don't leave me waiting too long, please come by
I still believe in your eyes
There is no choice, I belong to your life
Because I will live to love you someday
You'll be my baby and we'll fly away
And I'll fly with you,
Every day and every night
I always dream that you are by my side
Oh baby, every day and every night
Well, I said everything's gonna be alright
And I'll fly with you,"
Alan Walker - Faded
"You were the shadow to my light
Did you feel us?
Another star
You fade away
Afraid our aim is out of sight
Wanna see us
Alight
Where are you now?
Where are you now?
Where are you now?
Was it all in my fantasy?
Where are you now?
Were you only imaginary?"
Alle Farben & ILIRA - Fading
All I ever wanted was to find you
Find a love I never knew
I can feel the pain inside me fading
While I'm fading into you
Julee Cruise - The Nightingale
"The nightingale
It said to me
'There is a love
Meant for me'
The nightingale
It flew to me
And told me
That it found my love
He said one day
'I'll meet you'
Our hearts will fly
With the nightingale
The nightingale
He told me
One day
'You will be with me"
Julee Cruise - Into The Night
"Into the night
I cry out
I cry out your name.
Into the night
I search out
I search out your love.
Night so dark
Where are you?
Come back in my heart
So dark
So dark."
Julee Cruise - Mysteries of Love
"Sometimes a wind blows
And you and I float
In love
And kiss forever
In a darkness
And the mysteries of love
Come clear"
Julee Cruise - The Voice of Love
"When, when all the world falls
And when, when you are here
There's a glow just like the stars
I hear a distant voice, listen, listen
I dream, I dream of starlight
I dream, I dream of you
There's a glow just like the sun
I hear a distant voice, listen, listen"
Rank 1 - Airwave
"I feel you
Over the airwaves"
The Cure - Just Like Heaven
"Spinning on that dizzy edge
Kissed her face and kissed her head
Dreamed of all the different ways
I had to make her glow
"Why are you so far away?", she said
"Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you
That I'm in love with you?""
Bram Tchaikovsky - Girl Of My Dreams
"She's the girl of my dreams!"
This list will likely be amended over time.
If you know more songs or tracks like this, please let me know!
The Legend of the Zombie Rave - A Doomcore Techno Horror Story written by an AI
Dive into the darkness of underground hardcore techno with "The Legend of the Zombie Rave." This Halloween, the music takes on a supernatural twist, blurring the lines between the living and the dead. Join us for a journey that combines eerie rituals, supernatural forces, and the indomitable spirit of the underground. It's a tale of music, horror, and the thrill of the unknown. Dance to the rhythm of your own heartbeat in this special Halloween short story of "The Hardcore Overdogs."
Credits:
The text was entirely written by ChatGPT ( https://chat.openai.com/ )
The accompanying images were generated using Leonardo.Ai ( https://app.leonardo.ai/ ).
The introduction was also written by ChatGPT ;-)
Dream Producer Diary
Low Entropy's Dream Producer Diary
I've always been very interested in dreams, and find the whole topic of dreams and all that is connected to it extremely fascinating.
I got into things like lucid dreaming and like to explore hypnagogic states.
It is often suggested that as an explorer of dreams, it is sensible to keep a dream diary; as that helps tracking and understanding dream progress, as well as making one's own dreams more vivid, interesting, and also meaningful.
As a music producer, dreams had a huge influence on me and my music, and I based whole tracks, and even albums, on dreams.
Not only my own, of course, but also famous dreams from history, or dream sequences in movies, books, or simply dreamy music, and so on,
While my tracks are often influenced by dreams in a more general way, now and then I get a dream that has a quite direct and drastic impact on a track (or even album!) that I'm producing.
Thus I had the idea to write these down - and start my Dream Producer Diary!
And here it is.
So far, I've written the following parts:
(I write not only about the dreams themselves, but also about how dreams connect to my music production generally.)
https://lowentropyproducer.blogspot.com/2023/10/low-entropys-music-producer-dream-diary.html
2. Rave Track Dream
https://lowentropyproducer.blogspot.com/2023/10/rave-track-dream.html
3. Production Dream
https://lowentropyproducer.blogspot.com/2023/10/production-dream.html
4. Dream of politics
https://lowentropyproducer.blogspot.com/2023/10/dream-diary-political-dream.html
5. Dreams Album
New album: Cosmic Anarchists - Fight Back!
7 tracks about Hardcore, Love, and Anarchy.
Drawing inspiration from Slowcore, Acid, Dark Ambient, EBM, Krautrock, and many other things.
And here are the lyrics of the tracks:
fight back!
we've taken enough of your shit
we've taken enough of your lies
we've taken enough of your orders
we've taken enough of your madness
we will fight back
we will fight back
we will fight back
we will stand up and fight
we are sick of your rule
we are sick of your chokehold
we are sick of your culture
we are sick of you all
we will fight back
we will fight back
we will fight back
we will stand up and fight
fight
fight
fight
fight
we can win
things seem bleak
things seem without purpose
things seem without hope
things seem without end
but we can win
we can get through this
we can win
we can change the world
all is in disorder
all is lost
everything is crumbling
everything is approaching the end
but we can win
we can get through this
we can win
we can change our lives
change the world
change the world
change the world
no rulers
i don't need someone who tells me what to do
i don't need someone who tells me what to think
i don't need someone who tells me what to believe
i don't need someone who tells me how to act
no rulers
no rulers
no rulers
no rules
i don't need someone who tells me what is right
i don't need someone who tells me what is wrong
i don't need someone who tells me what is allowed
and i don't need someone who tells me what is not
no rulers
no rulers
no rulers
no rules
you are perfect
you don't need to be beautiful
you don't need to be without scars
you don't need to be spotless
you don't need to be without flaws
you are perfect the way you are
it doesn't matter if they call you ugly
it doesn't matter if they call you strange
it doesn't matter if they call you a freak
it doesn't matter if they call you weirdo
just because they don't understand what you truly are
you are perfect
because i love you
nothing is more beautiful in the universe than you
nothing is more amazing
nothing is more wonderful
nothing is more fantastic
because i love you
there is nothing else like you
you are unique, perfect, above it all
a light that shines through the darkness
the sweetest thing of it all
because i love you
to be with you is endless joy
to be with you is redemption
salvation and transcendence
to be with you is things not describable in words at all
because i love you
i love you
The Self
The self is perfect. Without flaw. Without faults.
All seemingly "faults" are just an illusion, in your eyes, in the eyes of others. They don't exist.
Because the self is already perfect, it never needs to change; if it desires to change, then purely for its own pleasures.
It needs to achieve nothing, attain nothing, in order to be perfect, and to stay perfect.
It is infinitely beautiful. Wonderful. Marvelous. Adorable. Lovable.
There is nothing evil about the self; because it is perfect, it is entirely good, true, right.
Those religions that claim to acknowledge the self, but say the self would be a kind of "higher self" that first needs to be found, attained, that one can only became part of through hardships and worship, lie.
The perfect, true self is not something that is hidden far above, or far away. It is *your* self. Your ordinary, everyday self that you know, that you are each day and each time, is already perfect, beautiful, and all the things that were mentioned here before.
In this sense, there is no higher self that you need to attain, because you are already this self. With all your flaws and worries and imperfection and mistakes - for these are just an illusion. You already are perfect. You already are true.
Most people try to split themselves into two parts; one part that they like and one part that they hate. For example, they might like their intellectual capabilities or feelings of confidence or similar things, but hate their anxieties, perceived lack of talent, weakness, emotional flaws and so on.
They have a whole part of themselves that they reject, and would like to split off, and essentially they think: ah, if one day I could get rid of this part of me forever, this part that is flawed, I could be a truly happy person.
Nothing could be further from the truth.
All parts of yourself are perfect. All your supposed flaws and seemingly negative aspects are actually wonderful and perfect, too.
If, one day, you follow this, and learn to accept your "negative" side, too, and fully acknowledge it, you will be whole for once. And then you can see how beautiful your own self really is.
This is the way to embrace your self and see its magnificence, and be truly happy.
All questions will be solved then. All answers will be given then.
All seemingly "faults" are just an illusion, in your eyes, in the eyes of others. They don't exist.
Because the self is already perfect, it never needs to change; if it desires to change, then purely for its own pleasures.
It needs to achieve nothing, attain nothing, in order to be perfect, and to stay perfect.
It is infinitely beautiful. Wonderful. Marvelous. Adorable. Lovable.
There is nothing evil about the self; because it is perfect, it is entirely good, true, right.
Those religions that claim to acknowledge the self, but say the self would be a kind of "higher self" that first needs to be found, attained, that one can only became part of through hardships and worship, lie.
The perfect, true self is not something that is hidden far above, or far away. It is *your* self. Your ordinary, everyday self that you know, that you are each day and each time, is already perfect, beautiful, and all the things that were mentioned here before.
In this sense, there is no higher self that you need to attain, because you are already this self. With all your flaws and worries and imperfection and mistakes - for these are just an illusion. You already are perfect. You already are true.
Most people try to split themselves into two parts; one part that they like and one part that they hate. For example, they might like their intellectual capabilities or feelings of confidence or similar things, but hate their anxieties, perceived lack of talent, weakness, emotional flaws and so on.
They have a whole part of themselves that they reject, and would like to split off, and essentially they think: ah, if one day I could get rid of this part of me forever, this part that is flawed, I could be a truly happy person.
Nothing could be further from the truth.
All parts of yourself are perfect. All your supposed flaws and seemingly negative aspects are actually wonderful and perfect, too.
If, one day, you follow this, and learn to accept your "negative" side, too, and fully acknowledge it, you will be whole for once. And then you can see how beautiful your own self really is.
This is the way to embrace your self and see its magnificence, and be truly happy.
All questions will be solved then. All answers will be given then.
To address possible criticism: if you assume you have tendencies in your self that might be extensively harmful to yourself and others if you "put these in reality", then this is of course not the way to go.
Putting things into reality is whole different topic. You would not put all your "positive" aspects into reality either (for example, you might be extremely smart, and think you could doctorate in dozens of fields if you wanted to, even if it's theoretically true, it would be very unlikely you would actually do this, since very sensible way to go, to spend all your energies for many years on such a task which might not lead you anywhere).
This is about embracing your self on a mental, emotional, individual level.
Putting things into reality is whole different topic. You would not put all your "positive" aspects into reality either (for example, you might be extremely smart, and think you could doctorate in dozens of fields if you wanted to, even if it's theoretically true, it would be very unlikely you would actually do this, since very sensible way to go, to spend all your energies for many years on such a task which might not lead you anywhere).
This is about embracing your self on a mental, emotional, individual level.
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