Steering Clear

i steered clear, or largely clear, in the last years, from the larger hardcore scenes such as breakcore and speedcore and delved into smaller areas such as acidcore and doomcore.
this has various reasons. there has been a lot of talk if the sound in mainstream hardcore or "terror" or speedcore has been evolved or not or is as hard or aggressive or kicking anymore, or if the new sound is superior. this is only secondary to me. i probably shouldn't waste too much thought on it. there is something different. when i joined the scene there was a certain spirit going around, that just is not there anymore. it is not something that could be easily explained or described. it's something you have to feel. and i don't feel it anymore. oh, and before you ask, it's not me who burned out, as i still feel this spirit very much with other, now growing scenes of music. eventually these areas of music might lose their spirit too - i guess it will happen to any scene eventually, or i suppose so. it was something in the way people behaved, the whole scene was structured. i felt immediately at home then. now i just feel as an outsider. the music and the people are no longer something i can relate to as they have changed - or i have changed and they did not. i don't know.
another thing is that the music doesn't set me free anymore. most hardcore that is produced makes me feel nothing. again, this is not something general. other music still sets you free. makes you feel as if you fly, reach the sky, makes you feel on top of the world, to slice through any obstacle and hindrance.
and third, hardcore is not something that relates to my own life in any way, most of the time. what is the point of hardcore? what is it message or meaning that it wants to transport? it used to have more meaning than any other genre, now it seemingly has less meaning than most other music. what exactly do the artists want to get across, want to tell me? to "have a good time" on "the dancefloor"? i could listen to 70s disco then aswell and wouldn't have the hassle to search for hardcore tunes. the funny thing here is, this is not even a criticism by me - the artists themselves don't even claim that the try to send any significant, deep, extensive cultural, social - or even political - idea, message, concept, structure by their music. they dont claim, or even think, their music could incite any larger change to society, for example. it is just produced for "entertainment" purposes. and, what should i say, if i wanted to be merely entertained i would be better off with mainstream pop, or as i said, disco.
the music with deep meaning is now produced in other genres. and i enjoy it highly there and get my buzz there.