in the 90s, when all this started for me, i believed hardcore techno could kickstart, with its energy and power, an anarchist revolution and change the face of society from the bottom up. but after 7 years of doing this sound and trying to be politically active, this goal seemed so faded and far away so i decided to just quit it all.
but i could not leave this behind, and all the years in between i tried to find a way, and finally found it, and realized the revolution *is* indeed a possibility that is still around, was around all the time and most likely will always be an option.
that's why i came back. the difference between my teenage me and nowadays is that i had an - almost naive - believe in these things while i now know with certainty that anarchism and revolution is possible and understand why.
but there was also an even different thing to it. at that time when that break happened, me and a lot of people i know, had a feeling that there is an important discovery to be made, that "dreams" and "reality" can not meet and it's important to give up your dreams to fully (dis?-)integrate into "real life". but this is not true at all.
there is no difference between your aspirations, your dreams, your creativity and your "wishful thinking" and everyday life or the "outside world".
because we was a humans can reflect ourselves, can reflect the world we live in and change it, and change society, in almost infinite ways.
so, there was never a real reason to give up "hope" at all.
