My life, and my mentality, changed a lot over the last few months, and this will also affect the music I produce in the future.
Why did I make the decision to produce Doomcore in the past? Most of all, because I felt that *I* was doomed. That I'm just a guy with severe mental health problems, that will likely get worse in the future, to the point where I get put in some institution for the rest of my life, and noone will ever hear from me again.
And, that while I slowly crawl towards my inevitable doom, I can at least spend the time producing some interesting and innovative music. That's also part of the reason I produced so many tracks - I wanted to have my musical journey be "wrapped up" and finished before that event happens.
But lately, I've been thinking - a lot. And came to the conclusion, that this "fate" is maybe not so inevitable at all, and that possibly, I might actually have - a future. Something I never believed once in the last 17 years. And that resigning to such dark thoughts as mentioned above is maybe not the best idea - even if a bad future is likely, one could still "put up a good fight" to change it.
So, this is of course a big game changer for my music too. Maybe I went too far with the bleakness and depression. This, of course, doesn't mean, that I want to stop producing Doomcore. But to all the exisiting negativity I could add some enthusiasm and hopeful aggression, for example. Or it's possible to explore some other genres more deeply too. There are many open roads.
Of course, these are just some "positive" thoughts that exist in the moment, and many times, when people talk about making a change in their life to the better, they fail even worse and fall even deeper.
But I'm hopeful for once - and will try to give my best, like one should. And continue with giving you plenty of musical output.
