Dive into the darkness of underground hardcore techno with "The Legend of the Zombie Rave." This Halloween, the music takes on a supernatural twist, blurring the lines between the living and the dead. Join us for a journey that combines eerie rituals, supernatural forces, and the indomitable spirit of the underground. It's a tale of music, horror, and the thrill of the unknown. Dance to the rhythm of your own heartbeat in this special Halloween short story of "The Hardcore Overdogs."
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I've always been very interested in dreams, and find the whole topic of dreams and all that is connected to it extremely fascinating.
I got into things like lucid dreaming and like to explore hypnagogic states.
It is often suggested that as an explorer of dreams, it is sensible to keep a dream diary; as that helps tracking and understanding dream progress, as well as making one's own dreams more vivid, interesting, and also meaningful.
As a music producer, dreams had a huge influence on me and my music, and I based whole tracks, and even albums, on dreams.
Not only my own, of course, but also famous dreams from history, or dream sequences in movies, books, or simply dreamy music, and so on,
While my tracks are often influenced by dreams in a more general way, now and then I get a dream that has a quite direct and drastic impact on a track (or even album!) that I'm producing.
Thus I had the idea to write these down - and start my Dream Producer Diary!
And here it is.
So far, I've written the following parts:
(I write not only about the dreams themselves, but also about how dreams connect to my music production generally.)
The self is perfect. Without flaw. Without faults. All seemingly "faults" are just an illusion, in your eyes, in the eyes of others. They don't exist. Because the self is already perfect, it never needs to change; if it desires to change, then purely for its own pleasures. It needs to achieve nothing, attain nothing, in order to be perfect, and to stay perfect. It is infinitely beautiful. Wonderful. Marvelous. Adorable. Lovable. There is nothing evil about the self; because it is perfect, it is entirely good, true, right.
Those religions that claim to acknowledge the self, but say the self would be a kind of "higher self" that first needs to be found, attained, that one can only became part of through hardships and worship, lie. The perfect, true self is not something that is hidden far above, or far away. It is *your* self. Your ordinary, everyday self that you know, that you are each day and each time, is already perfect, beautiful, and all the things that were mentioned here before. In this sense, there is no higher self that you need to attain, because you are already this self. With all your flaws and worries and imperfection and mistakes - for these are just an illusion. You already are perfect. You already are true.
Most people try to split themselves into two parts; one part that they like and one part that they hate. For example, they might like their intellectual capabilities or feelings of confidence or similar things, but hate their anxieties, perceived lack of talent, weakness, emotional flaws and so on. They have a whole part of themselves that they reject, and would like to split off, and essentially they think: ah, if one day I could get rid of this part of me forever, this part that is flawed, I could be a truly happy person. Nothing could be further from the truth. All parts of yourself are perfect. All your supposed flaws and seemingly negative aspects are actually wonderful and perfect, too.
If, one day, you follow this, and learn to accept your "negative" side, too, and fully acknowledge it, you will be whole for once. And then you can see how beautiful your own self really is.
This is the way to embrace your self and see its magnificence, and be truly happy.
All questions will be solved then. All answers will be given then.
To address possible criticism: if you assume you have tendencies in your self that might be extensively harmful to yourself and others if you "put these in reality", then this is of course not the way to go. Putting things into reality is whole different topic. You would not put all your "positive" aspects into reality either (for example, you might be extremely smart, and think you could doctorate in dozens of fields if you wanted to, even if it's theoretically true, it would be very unlikely you would actually do this, since very sensible way to go, to spend all your energies for many years on such a task which might not lead you anywhere).
This is about embracing your self on a mental, emotional, individual level.
There's the complaint that today's media sets "unrealistic standards"; by giving people the idea that everyone could be famous, or rich, or gain excessive beauty, or living a luxury life without having to work; and that that's dangerous, because humans become frustrated when they can't attain these things by themselves.
That's likely true, but I think there is something far more dangerous here: that today's media sets seemingly *realistic* standards of life. What I mean is this: no matter if you go on TV, or youtube, or social media, and so on, there are people who smile, and meet with friends, or are eating in a restaurant, or being at a party / concert / festival, or lying in the grass, or on a beach, having a good time. Proposing to their future partners. Or getting pranked by their friends in a funny way. Buying new stuff / clothes / food, and enjoying themselves. And that can give the false impression that this is how life is. That this is what life is about. That people actually live like that. Having lives like that; with their worst worries being that their jobs suck, they get stuck in a traffic jam, or that an annoying relative comes to visit.
But that's not how most people's lives are. That's not reality. That's not normal.
Normal is that people have severe depression. Crippling anxiety. That people are homeless. Without work and below poverty line. That people are disabled. Terminally sick. Obese, scarred, disfigured, anorexic.
Normal is that people live socially isolated lives. That they have no friends. That they don't go to social events.
Normal is that they get thrown out of their homes. Go to prison. Get institutionalized.
I could go on endlessly here.
Normal is that people do not know how to be able to get through the next year. Or the next week. Or the next day.
This is normalcy. The actual reality. The things "the media doesn't want you to see".
Have you ever wondered why the most popular videos on the internet are always completely mundane and simple things (as i mentioned), like unboxing an item, playing pranks, visiting a park, and so on?
Because the majority of people *wishes* they could live lives of simple joys, events, and mundane stuff, where everyone generally is of good cheer, and friendly and - instead of living a life of suffering, like the rest of us.
And this media "trend" is indeed dangerous. Not only because it makes *real* people feel like they are lesser to those who portray these cheerful, fake, virtual lives.
But also because it conceals the real misery and suffering that exists in the world, and in most people's life.
And if you don't acknowledge it - then you can't fight it, and you can't change it.
I discovered Hardcore Techno as a teenager with extreme mental health issues. Listening to this music helped me extremely with these problems.
I eventually started producing Hardcore myself. And the thought quickly came to me that my own productions could help me with my own problems as well. And they did. Tremendously.
To the point that I would probably be homeless, institutionalized, whatever, maybe worse - without being a Hardcore Techno producer.
Now, over the years, through my involvement in the Hardcore scene, I met lots of people, both in the "real world" and online, who also had severe mental health issues, sometimes better, sometimes worse than me.
And now and then, they told me that listening to the tracks I made for my *own* problems, helped them with *their* problems, too! And that "my" music actually helped them tremendously, and changed their lives to the better.
And I don't say this because 'it feeds my ego'. But because, being told this, I came to the thought that I could try to produce tracks in such a way, that it has a potential effect which aids others who are inflicted with these types of problem. To at least *try* to create something that is at least *partially* a cure. (If you don't think that art and music and hardcore *could* have a "therapeutic" effect... well, then I probably can't convince you of this. But I know that art has this power). And this way, I could do something *good* in this world for a change, and not return to the ashes at the end of my life, having wasted my energies.
This then become one of my biggest motifs when producing Hardcore. I wanted to created art that helps others with their mental health issues.
I always assumed this method is not without dangers. "Unleashing" an experimental art therapy... there are lots of things that could go wrong this way. It's one of the main reasons I tried to keep my music "underground", staying away from major labels and major exposure (and often actively sabotaging their efforts to "pull me out of the shadows" and into the public view).
To soothe my conscience, I always hoped that the music itself acts as the "gatekeeper" and lets the right ones in; i.e. that those who have these issues, yet are still drawn to my music, are drawn to it for the very reason that they feel it helps their condition, and does not worsen it!
(Nowadays, my take is that, yeah, what you do does have consequences. There is no 100% safe way in everything. You just gotta have faith, right? And try to do the best you can do.)
By the way, over time, my music attracted quite some wonderful and extreme "lunatics"... but that's another story!
So, here is a selection of tracks I made with the intention to help people with their mental health problems. (The list will be amended over time, so you can came back later to this post, and check it.)
in the list the specific issue to be cured is mentioned (such as depression, anxiety), next to the name of the track (put out on various releases).
So, handle this with care. I can't guarantee there is a help, aid, or cure in *for you*, maybe it will make your condition worse, or things will start to get strange for you quickly.
Let me tell you: I don't assume this would happen, not at all! But I thought a word of warning might be good.
To come to the conclusion of this text.
I hope I can help some people with these tracks on it in some way.
And regardless of this, I wish you the best, and hope you find some good possibilities to deal with your condition(s).
Oh, and if you think that these tracks, or even other music I produced, actually *did* help you, please contact me. Not only would i love this feedback, but it could also make it easier for me to produce similar tracks in the future. and if you had adverse effects, or bother bizarre things happened, you can contact me too, of course.
